my life is crazy!
It's unbelievable how quickly things change! If you would have asked me a year ago where I would be today, this is the LAST place I would have expected. But, I couldn't be happier with the way things are unfolding. 2008 was a crazy, chaotic, mess-of-a-year for me, but I'm finally starting to understand just how on top of things God really is. In early May, about a month after my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I found out I was pregnant. Great timing, huh? I didn't think so either. Then, on August 8, 2008, my barely 39 year old mother passed away. Great! I was already 17 and 5 months pregnant. Adding "motherless" to my title was just the icing on the cake. I was so mad at God for "letting" me get pregnant (yea, like I had nothing to do with that, right? silly me!) at such a terrible time that I still didn't realize how he was trying to take care of me. Now looking back, I can see how much of a blessing my pregnancy was. My daughter is my WHOLE WORLD, and if I wouldn't have had her to look forward to, I don't know how I would have ever made it through my mom's death. Moral of the story? Whenever you feel like life sucks and God sucks and things couldn't possibly get any worse, try to remember that he knows exactly what he's doing, his timing is perfect, and one day it will all make sense to you.
-tl.

DPL .

DRAKE & LYKKE LI

This Was An Unexpected Colab, I Woulda Never Guessed These
Two Artists Out Of All Would Come Together And Make Such A
Wonderful Song Together. I Love It & You Will To, Just Take A Listen.

severely STONED.

Love

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. We have that bond, we have roots that grow towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

POEM .

you tried to destroy me and leave me confused with a broken heart. the colors seem to fade from red to black, yours stayed blue seeing you have the coldest heart. yes now, i see your true colors.
My heart is temporarily out of service no use in me being apprehensive because someone greater than you will receive it, never mislead it, never mistreat it, never offend it and lastly bruise it;
I refuse to remain here and compensate. mistakes are made by people who love to mistake. i learned my lesson and never will i attempt to re-create a picture perfect painting that was destroyed in the fire. so I'm going to let it burn now its your turn to try and consolidate.
but now I'm moving on with my life; supposedly you are too as well as your mistress. "the other chick" sort of speak. i laugh at you hysterically, simply because you have no clue that relationships that we're built on lies never do perform & in the end you'll be the one heart sick and the curtains will be closed.
you threw me away like i needed you but in due time you'll find that
I'm gonna be the one you need.

-b.lomax