my life is crazy!
It's unbelievable how quickly things change! If you would have asked me a year ago where I would be today, this is the LAST place I would have expected. But, I couldn't be happier with the way things are unfolding. 2008 was a crazy, chaotic, mess-of-a-year for me, but I'm finally starting to understand just how on top of things God really is. In early May, about a month after my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I found out I was pregnant. Great timing, huh? I didn't think so either. Then, on August 8, 2008, my barely 39 year old mother passed away. Great! I was already 17 and 5 months pregnant. Adding "motherless" to my title was just the icing on the cake. I was so mad at God for "letting" me get pregnant (yea, like I had nothing to do with that, right? silly me!) at such a terrible time that I still didn't realize how he was trying to take care of me. Now looking back, I can see how much of a blessing my pregnancy was. My daughter is my WHOLE WORLD, and if I wouldn't have had her to look forward to, I don't know how I would have ever made it through my mom's death. Moral of the story? Whenever you feel like life sucks and God sucks and things couldn't possibly get any worse, try to remember that he knows exactly what he's doing, his timing is perfect, and one day it will all make sense to you.
-tl.